Look together with me.

egggciting

2009-02-05T15:42:00.002+08:00

Life's getting excited recently HAAHAA.

1) i wonder whats wrong with me and mondays and my alarm clock . im perfectly fine with waking up, but i wonder whats the curse with monday and why my alarm hardly works on mondays. third week of school, two detentions already. woo.

2) if i had missed school altgt, missed trg, i might nt have sprained my ankle. oucccccch

3) my ankle is recovering fine after my visit to the sinsseh. i nearly die there. pao can vouch.

4) after talking to mango on wed i know why shes so hardcore and why she does the things that she does. it just makes me understand, bt i wont entirely agree with it. oopps

5) second time in this week im late for school today ouchhhhhhhhhhhh. but im not booked! heh cos i rushed out of the house within 5 mins after i woke up and by the time i reached the mrt karen was still there! the mrt broke down soooooooo wooohooo late for sch but not caught yayeeeee

6) vectors getting on my nerves say woohoooooooo

7) tmr's huishi's birthday :D YAYE

8) i think i will go back to trg, on friday. my ankle seems fine. should i ?

8 is the luckkkeeey number. woooooooo

3CHEERS!

2009-02-04T23:08:00.001+08:00

cheer !

cos my ankle seems to hurt much much lesser than ytd. : )

cheer !
i skipped mass pe today .

cheer !
i get to skip swim pe on monday! : D

Hi, I'm Lame, how about you?

2009-02-02T23:04:00.000+08:00

ITS TRUE SO LAME RIGHT

i sprained my ankle so im lame. :D

ok i was late + detention.

: )

bye.

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelp

2009-01-29T21:27:00.001+08:00

baaaaaaaah
moooooooo
meeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhh
meowwwwwwwwww
woooooooooooof
rooooooarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

help.
math is hard. :(

If I get sick tmr, I know why.

2009-01-28T22:33:00.001+08:00

I just ate chinese goodies.. for dinner. wooo!

im thanking God that i survived today.
im thanking God that tmr there's no trg.
im thanking God that.. FRIDAY might have no trg!

i need to rest . seriously.
and for those who have been feeling down, take heart, you are not alone!
cheer up! :D

everybody in the house yo!

2009-01-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

i think im feeling much much better.
wooo!

Beneath the still waters, I wonder.

2009-01-22T16:07:00.002+08:00

Indeed the week is finally coming to an end.
I wonder how i even survived it.

wait a min, are there going to be any more devestating news tmr, dear God?
And now i thought of Job, how on earth did he even managed to gather the strength to praise God, despite all the losses that he suffered. one may say his heart was strong, but perhaps he is just Spirit-filled and Kingdom-minded. in comparison, Paul is yet another person that make me wonder in awe. how could this be? perhaps its easier to read the epistles over and over again than to be convinced by the very truth that Paul went through times worse than me ( or yours ) but by God's grace he was picked up and able to praise God in every season of his life after knowing Jesus.

wooo.

I rmb i told pao something when she felt like ponning school. and to myself, in this situation, i can only say that, there's a thousand reasons why i should give up, but if there's just one reason for me to be truly thankful for God ( which i obviously have ) then i will hold on to it and fix my eyes on Jesus.

When all else fails, know that Jesus never fail.
absolute.

When you cant trace God's hand, trust His heart.

2009-01-20T20:39:00.002+08:00

These few days have been extremely depressing.
either that these testings are really coming too tough on me, or that my heart is too faint to endure. whichever it is, i would still prefer to say JESUS TAKE ME HOME!!!

SOP

2009-01-19T22:47:00.004+08:00

I think everyone has a Standard Operating Procedure that we adhere to daily and today, mine became slightly not so usual anymore.

I misplaced my ezlink card, and i have yet to find it. then as i was talking to Karen and XY on the train back, i realised that just because my ezlink card was gone, i suddenly have so many more choices to make.
Am i still going to take the bus ?
Am i supp to pay adult fare?
Since im already late, should i go to school st away or wait till chapel is over? or, be abit more naughty to skip pe as well?
hey wait, so now im approaching sch, should i go by the back gate or front?
if the back gate has no guard/ teacher, do i want to climb in?

the entire morning was filled with such questions, and no doubt it triggered my inner most thoughts, that eventually question myself: Yixian, are you doing what a person, who loves God and profess to walk in Christ-likeness, would do when it comes to this?
it might be minor and i can compromise, i mean, why not!!!

ok so i was booked by mdm tham at the back gate.
actually, im rather happy. in the sense that i wasnt exactly left with a choice to decide if i should climb in or not and be sneaky and lie to my form teacher? i guess.. its the butterfly effect. and becos i did the right thing, i dont suffer from guilt, and... everything just ends the moment detention ended.

Apart from that, im really annoyed at myself.
first, i lost a hairclip which i clearly rmbed i put in my uniform pocket.
sec, i lost a comb within half an hour after i bought it cos it slipped out of my pocket when i was on the bus.
lastly... my ez-link card is lost and there goes my convenience.. ouch. no EASY-LINK, no easy.

k i think i should stop wasting time here.
what im glad about it that i didnt i chose to see the good instead of my loss today, ;)
better, and happier.

bye!

NDE.

2009-01-18T20:49:00.002+08:00

Near Death Experience...
I wonder if i will ever have NDE..
ahh, let me drown! car accident...? hmmmm. sounds exciting!
if i ever take a tour to wherever my soul goes during the NDE that will be extremely interesting. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee . : )

ahhhh eeeeeeeeeee-sian neeeds to shopp ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ANGER HAS NO HOLD ON ME! :D

2009-01-16T17:42:00.000+08:00

Today's Truth
"Forgive as the Lord forgave you" (Colossians 3:14 NIV).

Friend to Friend
Yesterday we looked at the amazing grace and forgiveness we have each received from God. Today, let's continue our time together thinking about forgiving those who have hurt us. As I mentioned yesterday, forgiveness is the only path to freedom. Whether it is our own freedom from the penalty of sin we are talking about, or freedom from the pain of our past, forgiveness is the only way.

But he doesn't deserve to be forgiven, I hear you say. Neither did I. Neither did you. Forgiveness has absolutely nothing to do with whether or not the person who hurt us deserves to be forgiven. Forgiveness is not saying that what the person did or didn't do was right. It is simply saying that we are taking the person off of our hook and placing them on God's hook. We are cutting them loose from our backs and giving the burden to God. We are no longer allowing them to hold us captive by holding a grudge.

As long as we do not forgive, we are held in Satan's vice grip. Satan's number one avenue to ensnare his prey is unforgiveness. Paul wrote, "Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice" (Ephesians 4:31). Why? "In order that no advantage be taken of us by Satan; for we are not ignorant of his schemes" (2 Corinthians 2:11 NIV).

Forgiveness does not mean that we put ourselves in a position to be abused or mistreated again. If you are in an abusive relationship, it is very important to set up healthy boundaries or remove yourself from the situation. There are many great books to assist with how and when to set boundaries for healthy relationships.
Nothing will make us more bitter than an unforgiving spirit. And nothing will dissolve bitterness quicker than a decision to forgive and let go of the offense or disappointment. We cannot be bitter and get better at the same time.

Forgiveness is not:

Saying that what the person did was not wrong
Absolving the person from responsibility for their actions
Denying the wrong occurred
Pretending the abuse did not happen.
Forgiveness is:

Letting go of your need for revenge
Cutting the person loose
Refusing to let bitterness and hatred rule your life.
Are you ready to be free? Let's look at six steps to forgiveness. We'll wrap up our prayer time and "Now It's Your Turn" all in one today.
Six Steps to Forgiveness
Let me walk with you through six steps to forgiveness that might help you in the process:

On a piece of paper, write the name of the person who has hurt you.
Write down how the person hurt you (i.e. rape, verbal abuse, sexual abuse, neglect, betrayal, desertion, rejection, etc.)
Write down how you feel about that person. Be honest. God knows how you feel.

Decide to forgive. Forgiveness is not a feeling but a decision of the will. God will never tell us to do something without providing the power to obey. He has told us to forgive and will give us the power-- but it all begins with the decision to do so.

Take your list to God and confess your forgiveness to Him. "Lord, I come to You today and give up my unforgiveness. I forgive_____for __________. At this moment, I choose not to hold his/her offense against him/her, but put them into your hands. I pray that you will heal my emotional wounds and help me to be able to help someone else with the same comfort you have given me. I cut ______ loose."

Destroy the list. As a visual exercise, destroy the list. Some have taken the list to a safe place, such as a fireplace, and burned it. Others have actually nailed the paper to a wooden cross. Still others have written the person's name that they are forgiving on a helium balloon and released it to heaven. However you choose, give the name to God.

if this might help you. ;)

if life ever has an undo button

2009-01-15T23:08:00.002+08:00

what im feeling right now is undescribable.
the closest word = suck.

I wonder why at the tender age (it still is!) of 18, adults expect so much out from us, school expects so much out from us, teachers, friends... and undeniably, myself.
When all the responsiblities come crushing down, the so-called solution would be prayers clasped in two hands. but at sometimes, even I, a normal human being would want to wallow in self-pity, would want to blame anything and everything for the cause of my misery.

Being too rationale, i realise, is not exactly a very good thing. At times such as this my mind would fight hard with my heart to which is the best way to face and handle the situation, to pick myself up from wherever i've allowed myself to stop.

and seriously, i have no idea why today went the way it did.

Yixian will be fine. :) cheers and goodnight.

FREE ICECREAM TREAT!

2009-01-12T21:13:00.003+08:00

yes! i've decided that i cannot be so phlegmatic about my studies anymore, this is doing me no good! tsk tsk.

so! because getting started is perhaps the most difficult i'm facing right now, heh, whoever that can study with me + motivate me to study + push me to finish all my hols assignment + teaching me all the new topics, shall get a free swensens' icecream treat from your royal highness ME!

seriously.

first day of school IS V V TIRING. i couldnt get used to the lessons and i fell asleep during chem lecture today. so much for telling myself to pay attention. :S
and highlight of the day! acc pao to cut her hair! wahahahhaa, so cute neh!! :D
and zj and i had alot of fun laughing AT her wooohooo!!

i guess i cant sit here and wait for anyone to volunteer themselves to help me right. ahem, so i shall attempt to get started on my 2nd essay outline!!! :)

seeyouaround!!

PS: i have a new GP teacher and apparently i think she's a very interesting lady. im hoping that she will be THE teacher to change my laziness.. WAHAHAHA

kaaaaaaaaaaaaa-cha!

2009-01-11T12:14:00.000+08:00

yixian had a new haircut too cute for an 18yr old.

woohoo!

You'll Come

2009-01-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

Chains be broken,
lives be healed,
eyes be opened,
Christ is revealed.

I.LOVE.GOD

2009-01-08T00:20:00.001+08:00

does it take alot to understand?

thats all i want to say.

Holiday Mood!

2009-01-06T15:04:00.002+08:00

totally man. im in a ultra holiday mood. the moment i got up i caught 3episodes of a korean drama. zzz. im in no mood to do work, seriously.

and kityee just offered to acc me to study while she reads.. but the thought of studying is already depleting all my remaining energy! :( but how. this kind of thing cannot siam one what. sooner or later, i will have to do it.

anyway, ytd went jb and kityee shawn and jialiang woohooo exciting!!! er. ok la. but the movie there is ultra cheap. its only 6RM for students rate. plusssssss, pop corn large combo is only 8RM. tell me about it man! spore is so expensive. hahhahahaha

everything was pretty much in a rush cos we spent 2 hours in watching Ip Man. so yupp. i refuse to watch movie again there! or maybe. i will, just that i will go earlier next time :D

yixian needs someone to push her. seriously.

Death

2009-01-04T21:31:00.003+08:00

Amelia's brother just passed away this morning. 26years old.

and you know what? despite it being so sudden, there is just one thing that I'm happy about and the reason should be enough to mitigate the grief: Her brother gave his life to Jesus 6months ago. :)

and now, i'm sure he is in heaven.
but i cant be certain if you'll end up there if you die today.

death, is indeed unpredictable.

And now i wonder, when will you believe in what i've been sharing and give your life to Jesus?

heaven? life? now? death? me? you? where? how? really? yes? dunno? why?
????
???
??
?

"I AM HERE."

first09

2009-01-01T04:32:00.002+08:00

Eversince the last post, I think that...
Yixian has been living in her own bubble.

Why so...?
You see, I wanted to end 2008 'well' in a way, but just before i could, i did something really insensible. ok maybe its just to me. in anycase, i was sort of convicted that its true that i've such a weakness and that.. AAAAAAH. its like, "hello yixian yes 2008 is coming to an end bt its not going to affect everything else, life goes on as usual and you still have to pay a price to learn lessons. dont think that even in the 48hours before 2009 comes there's nth much going to happen. so wake up your idea xian"
ok so tht was what happened.

and today, i heard the most shocking news in my life.
someone whom i know but lost contact with, is. is... is.. yea.
shock ttm.
and sometimes u cannot help but wonder, and somehow, as much as i think that i'm not responsible for it, i think that even at the most indirect manner, im one of the links in the long chain. and to be very honest, it did take me awhile to acknowledge that indeed God is still soveriegn and in control of the situation, that if this is the price that she has to pay for the lesson? a price too heavy indeed.

thats why, yixian should open her eyes and look arnd.
stop living in your own bubble xian.

Thanking God for...

2008-12-29T17:43:00.003+08:00

events and things that happened in the span of this entire year, in NO order of preference, and NO order of importance, simply random:

O levels results;
I guess I wasn't very pleased with my score INITIALLY, and I didnt know why it had to me kind of thing... but when I look back from now, i see why God is still good, despite my circumstances, despite however good or poor I obtained for O's. C'mon, its just O's, :)

Transition from NJ to ACJC;
I wouldnt deny that it felt good when i can give people the impression that i come from an elitist school HAHHAHA, but I guess it was a good change afterall. I have to admit that if i scored well enough to stay in nj, i might not be able to sustain because i am, afterall, not that smart. hahahaha. and AC has been good, not that im very acified, but the fact the God has blessed me a group of fun-loving friends in class and cca, and the fact that the culture isnt so studious like nj makes me comfortable to slack once in a while :) So even though i was reluctant to go AC initially, God ultimately has a BETTER plan for me, :)

Ailing, Cindy, Edison;
these three people accompanied me during my nj days, and i was truly glad that they were around to help me, to cheer me, to joke with and i'm certain we had a lot of fun tgt. A pity that we sort of lost contact because we dont talk to each other anymore. Still, thanking them for those precious moments we once shared...

ACVB;
even though i rmb shumei once said that she(and the rest) were pretty upset that i joined only after seasons, i'd said and i would say it again. during the entire first 2-3months when i came into AC, i didnt exactly like the idea of playing vball again, nor did i want to join just because my friends in other schools are playing it. i sincerely wanted to try out other ccas, (ie xxx, xxxx, HAHAHHA) but i also thank God that i didnt managed to. if nt, i wouldnt have joined vball again. and the reason why i decided to join back vball, was for the very reason that i love playing it. i enjoy the sport alot and i craved for it. thats why i joined. and i've never regretted joining vollyball, never regretted joining LATE, because i knew i needed time, and i definitely enjoy the company that i'm in, because THESE GIRLS ARE SUCH FUN-LOVING PEOPLE, :)

Grace retreat;
Life Game was THE thing. and in addition to that, i'm pretty sure my faith was stretched to another aspect in terms of my relationship with people. it wasnt exactly an easy path, but i thank God that He had been (& still will) faithful in guiding me through those times. Exsiting friendships became stronger, and I got to know a few others too. of cos, Yongjian is one of them, to see him being impacted, to see how he is growing right now blesses my heart.

Noella;
bestie. thanking God that i've found a trustworthy friend, someone whom i've shared tears of joy and laughter... to be like-minded in our ministries, to be passionate about young people and R-age, to have gone through the same journey of trying to love the unlovables, and taking up emceeing- to just be NOELLA. :)

Huishi;
thanking God for the 1-year old friendship, for moments that we shared our deepest thoughts, to have voiced out struggles in our lives, to have allowed me to speak into her life and listened to whatever I'd to say at every season of our lives...

Tiffany;
"something that cannot be talked about is alr out of control in your life", and i treasure so much so much of her being transparent, being open about thoughts and feelings. thanking God for the love that she has for the people around her, to even influence me,and challenge me the true essence of stbapmimss, to have been friends with her for 5 years and thanking God that this friendship is growing strong and steady. much love pal.

Peiyi and Mad;
school have been less daunting for a start because i know you girls are around seriously. thanking God for all the moments that you girls tried to make me familiarise with AC, for agreeing our meeting once a week during lunch breaks, to have joked and accompanied me in physics lessons. seriously. i cant imagine whats physics lessons in one whole year without you two!

Meiyin and Melissa;
all 3 of us are soo different and yet truly it must have been God's creativity to have made us in such a manner, that we rubbed off one another well in cell mentoring. thanking God for opening a door for meiyin to go to YA for she knows its her calling, and Melissa for coming in because its her calling from You as well!

STBAPMIMSS;
"this kind of thing do once enough alr, no need to do a second time" HAHA, and Pastor CX chided me for saying this during the clearing up on Rhema last day. but indeed, thanking God that I'm in the comm, to know the essence of stbapmimss better than most R-agers, i think all the effort is worth it. and honestly, i think stbapmimss goes well with Rhema and all, praise God! for the times i needed help, guidance... and definitely, working with people has taught me much as well. :)

PW;
projectwork is definitely not the most intersting subject anyone would want to do, and whats more when i had a not really easy group INITIALLY. yep thats what i thought, but I thank God for every time i think im better than another in a way or another, the verse that says, "but in humility, consider others better than yourself" and im very convicted about it. to have seen my grp members through the eyes of Jesus makes me rejoice and of cos, surviving this trial has allowed me to grow as well...

Foolz;
thank God that even in my first year of CM-ing, i know most of the kids better, i managed to invest time and effort into their lives despite my(as well as theirs') busy schedule. and i think its afterall worth it, and i thank God for both the opportunity to lead them, and them for giving me a right to lead them.next year-seeking God for their growth instead of seeking them, if you get what i mean. :)

Elliot;
thanking God for him to just be there to offer help, to serve as usher, to do the sai-gangs, to account to me for the things i've asked, for the things that were happening to the people around me, esp my cell kids. and for allowing me to irritate! HA!

Birthday Celebration;
to feel so loved by my group of friends, to have them done SO much in initiaing, in carrying out the surprise, to make it worth rmbering, to make it so memorable for me. and classmates for surprising me with a big birthday ballon, to just cheer me up, :)

Keef, David, Toh;
thanking God for all the nonsense moments that we shared during the study sessions, to go through a period when all students hate - exams. to serve as a guide, to teach, to impart, to share, to have fun...! :)

Joey;
for being an occasional mentor, to pop into my life and checked on me once in a while via msn, to listen to my struggles and hopes that I have in my life and my ministries.. thanking God that he puts in effort to know what's happening in my life, to impart life experiences, to give support and encouragement, advices and reminders- that God is the reason for everything. :)

Jeanie dearest;
thanking God for the fact that she never stop caring, never stop asking, never stop listening, never stop praying with and for me, never stop feeding me, never stop shepherding, never stop leading by example, never stop encouraging, never stop affirming, and never stop giving- thanking God for the one and only Jeanie, :)

Family;
2008 has been an even more trying year, but i give thanks to God for ma and pa, for the fact that they are still alive, the fact that ma came to church, for the fact that God is still keeping this family tgt despite the circumstances. for my sister that could have but didnt walk out on the family completely, for my parents who could have been more melancholy but still making ends meet... for God being in control of all things.

Promos;
thanking God that i promoted! that despite however little effort in put into my studies because of the situation i was in, that my brain isnt functioning as well as before yet i could do well in certain subjects... :)

Shawn;
because for all the times i needed to whine, he took it all. and vice versa. to keep each other in prayer, to know that the very foundation of our friendship lies in God. to be my buddy, to always offer to help me esp in my weakest subj physics, for putting in effort to make our friendship continue. :)

Kityee;
thank God for her because she appreciates me, and knowing that we're always there for each other no matter how long we havent been talking, is a reason enough to thank God for. :)

BPVB;
that volleyball is still the reason that keeps all of us in contact, to meet up and have fun tgt at the recent vball camp ;) esp the girls, missing them all.

Jiaxin;
to thank God that she has become more muggish! or rather that she is able to do relatively well in aj. thanking God that even though we arent in the same school anymore but we think of each other and hoping God would renew our friendship and bring it to another level in 2009 . :)

P&Ps;
thanking God for meeting me and refreshing me every first friday of the month, to find comfort and rest, to gain strength to begin a new month.

Karimun;
to gain exposure in a foreign land, to understand God's heartbeat as we were making a prayer walk, to make new friends with other R-agers, and the people there... to know what it is like to be grateful for what I have, and to give more generously to missions for the glory of God's kingdom..

My clique + Dan's clique;
of cos that includes paul and zhengyi, and i thank God for them because life in AC becomes like what jolyn says, less daunting, really. to have to laugh at and laugh with, to just have fun and encourage each other along this strenuous journey. :)

God;
last, but certainly, absolutely, definitely, without any shadow of doubt NOT the least, in fact the very sole reason why i am doing what i am doing, why i'm saying what i'm saying. because i thank God that He is God, who loves me for who i am, and the very reason why im kicking and alive, the very reason why im living. indeed.

ps: this has been a very long post, i wonder if i'd missed anything, but i certainly hope not.

:)

2008-12-23T22:22:00.001+08:00

JIAXIN JUST MADE MY DAY.

" I'm v v happy..."

2008-12-22T10:20:00.002+08:00

I've been saying this for the whole of last night and here i am to explain why!

... I brought my mommy to church ytd for the very first time! and even though she seems rather reluctant and all, i still think that the thought of a Saviour to give her hope in her life appealed to her. it's a good start. :)

ok so ytd was our clique outing at Faith's place! :D

I took a nap and overslept but i reached there just on time! hahhahaaa.. we'd steamboat! which was rather cool and totally hilarious over dinner. its true its true..

ok. im getting bored. im not exactly a good blogger, as you can tell.
So, i'll keep it short and simple.

for the rest of the night,...
mahjong, bridge, tai-di, poker ...
i got knocked out at 330am. and i'd 5 hours of sleep! cooooolzzzz.

im loving it! :D

goodbyezzz

save me!

2008-12-10T00:02:00.002+08:00

I NEED PRAYERS

help me i think im dyinghhahaa.

if you can help, please pray for me:

my mom's back

STBAPMIMSS prep

vball camp prep

vball trgs/matches

ministry committments

...

YOU GET THE POINT. :)

I'm Sneezy.

2008-12-09T13:49:00.002+08:00

HAHHAHA, cos we are the Snow White and the 7 Dwarfs clique and elliot says im Sneezy cos i always sneeze! ahem.

ok, a quick update. :)
3 4 5 dec was in AC vball camp, tiring, but very fun! its very memorable i would say, and i think we're getting closer as a team. season is coming next year, and this dec is going to pass so quickly.

in fact, now is already mid dec. O.O horror. AHAHA

so now im back from leaders retreat, which was at st john's island! not as bad as i thought it would be, but in any case, i'd fun with the girls and of cos the West people. we machiam super glue la go where also stick tgt one. HAHAHAA. i must say that despite the unfavourable weather, i thought it was quite interesting to go on a treasure hunt on st john's island. we spent time talking about the SOP and i enjoyed the powerpraise myself. indeed.

and i love love love playing articulate and blockus and first hand! its SUPER FUN. if i can i will bring the game and play with acvb girls :DDD

anw this was supp to be a quick update.

RHEMA CONFERENCE IN 5 DAYS TIME!!!

i rmbed what jon said!

2008-11-30T11:50:00.002+08:00

i rmb the other time when we had the karimun outing... we passed by this super huge Buddhist Association thing.. then jon wong shared with me that when he was younger he also wanted to pray until the idols zeekabom burst into 10000 pieces.

now if God is willing, (wAHHAAHHA) i also wanna pray until all the idols in my house just burst into 10000 pieces.

ROAR.

im upset. i will get over it.

bye.

I'm glad its over.

2008-11-29T21:53:00.003+08:00

I thought I really did a rubbish job this time round when i emceed, but ironically, I think that I'm rather happy about it and.. I thought its the best experience. :)

maybe manrong was trying to be kind with her words and encouraged me, idk? but if there was something else she had wanted to comment about, then i really couldnt tell. in any case, i felt fine, really.

and maybe for the past few times that i've tried, i thought they were rather smooth and.. standard. perhaps its when i decided that Jesus be strong in my weaknesses! yes its true. i thought i couldnt make it. i rather, i knew. and, i guess the strange part is, i actually felt good when im weak, and YET, i can still move on- by God's strength. its ... amazing :)

with that aside, life is actually not a bed of roses for me, definitely. but i guess its in different situations and struggles that i really see God moving in my life. its not some fable or fairytale, that i've made up inside my head, really really.

guess what? i think its time to do some homework. boo. :)
pyscho: i love hmwk!

it's all about SETTING!

2008-11-27T23:21:00.002+08:00

I'm pretty glad i didnt meet anyone in the morning before trg. i kinda think that im a super woman, trying to fill my day SO packed that i hardly get time to rest. so today was good! and eating lunch at 1230 = good for running cos wont puke butalso = v v early hungryyyyy!!!

today jiaolian didnt come and shumei and i were dragged to hardcore setting trg. everybody say WHHEEEE. :D hahahah ok its quite fun and as jean said, her side was super boring, so count myself lucky!

one thing from relief jiaolian: open your thumbs!

biang i promise he repeated that 10000 times. and NO, not that i kept closing my thumbs ok seriously. i shall reveal the mystery!

shumei came over to me and compared our thumbs sizes and mine was freaking shorttttttttttt! idk why. honestly. and they just kept laughing at me like anything esp when jiaolian kept saying open your thumbs!!! woah. champion.

and i caught the laugh bug. AHAHHAH i cant stop laughing during trg and it stops me (and shumei) from setting properly. HAHAHHA.

wheeeeee trg is fun. and sian we lost a ball today . TODAY. today. when mango is here. WHHHY.

From 10 to 4!

2008-11-27T11:51:00.002+08:00

i mean, supposedly 10 people could be there to fetch jean and sarah and zijian from airport, but ytd only four of us went! hoho.

and we had a good time laughing at each other and laughing with each other! toook lots of silly photos and we found a v v cool place to hang out in T3! its inside the Crownz Plaza with spinning couches! hahahha and shumei was scolded by a man when she kept spinning ahhahhaa!

anddd ame's the best. hahhaha inside joke nvm. anw airport made us felt like we are already overseas! ok at least i did when i was at the viewing mall. aaaaaawww. oh yah, and i realised something. popeye's isnt that fantastic as everyone claims for it to be, really. i thought botak jones won them hands down seriously. AHAHHAHA

and champion kids! we missed the last train! yep. thats true. so.. we took the only available train from changi to tanah merah.. and took bus 14 which shumei claimed to take only 15-20mins. HAHHAHAHA joke. and we intended to take to town so i can change bus home. sadly. last bus from town to cck is 2330. WHAT THE RIGHT! so i took 14 to dover with suan mei and cabbed home. WAHHAHA. it was pouring like anything pls.

so i chatted with the taxi uncle, AHAHHA how nice. he's same age as my dad but his son is alr 33. biang. i promise im going to get married early and have kids early next time! if the Lord will provide a man for me, HAHAHHAA. and if it is the Lord's will as well, i pray that the seed planted will grow too :)

anwwwwww. v v tired. trg later. aaaaaw. jean and sarah are back. and she is too. : ahemmmmm.

The People Sing;

2008-11-24T09:45:00.002+08:00

I was reminded ytd that God is Hossana, that in all my situations, He saves.

Last night I was just chatting with gh, and it really amazes me how God spoke through him. it didnt really occur to me at the point he said it, but yup, it made sense. i cant help but thank God know,... this is what i call fellowship! honestly. though we are not very close friends, it seems to me that God is really the foundation of our friendship. but that aside, as i was saying.. God reminded of some stuff ytd that really, apart from Christ, i can do NOTHING.

im not supp to fight this battle by myself! but with God's strength. :D

and i know i CAN! :)

anyway, im meeting jolyn later. and going tiffy's house after that. happiness and joy!

finally catching madagasca with pao on tues! :D v v cool~ HAHHAAA

and.. i really missed the times when WE used to study tgt. though now i rather not!!!!

ATTACK!

2008-11-23T17:02:00.000+08:00

all under.. attack!

10000 things!

2008-11-20T20:55:00.002+08:00

I'm supp to meet Lingzhi tmr to get some stuff, and just today, i realised i might have so many other things to do.

ahem ahem,

1. accompany mel for a run
2. go for Ps Benny Ho's lesson which I totally forgot.
3. go play pool with pao and friends
4. was originally planning to dinner with huishi at ikea but this is totally not confirm.

:S

and i can only meet lz arnd late noon or early evening. which is we havent decide. AHEM.
hello i still want a 'xiang chang' to make me more satisfied!!!

PS: i love hanging out after trainings :D

Just So You Know.

2008-11-16T21:09:00.002+08:00

Do you know why i think it is not easy to be an emcee?

Because one cannot have issues unresolved in his heart and at the same time lead others into the prescence of God.

Im feeling strange. like.. falling sick soon.

O.o

2008-11-14T12:14:00.001+08:00

I SLEPT AT 5AM LAST NIGHT.

I WOKE UP AT 830AM BECAUSE OF HUNGER PANGS.

I ATE NISSIN CUP NOODLES.

I WENT BACK TO SLEEP TILL 12NOON.

THIS IS STILL NOT ENOUGHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I cannot do this again..

2008-11-14T01:50:00.002+08:00

honestly can you guess what im doing here 2 in the morning? :S
i had trg till late just now, i should be resting by now.
supper with jean karen and xueyi.

I SHOULD NEVER ORDER TEH PENG AGAIN FOR SUPPER.

honestly know! tsk. its not the first time already leh. im still so.. dumb. :(
and i just watch the stomp vid jolyn sent me ohhhhhhhmyyyytian.
anyways. im glad im finally feeling slpy now.

:)

The Fact Of Life

2008-11-12T23:30:00.002+08:00

let me tell you about my day - ok fine u can decide to close this window, it might bore you.

i amazingly woke up at 8plus this morning because of the fact that i didnt had a good sleep. ohweeeeel. and i was thankful that my mommy helped me clear my desk(yes,O.o) but i was pretty upset when i couldnt find my Rhema Prayer Booklet! :(
AHA! when i thought that i didnt have any stuff to do, heeeheee, then i rmbed i downloaded Ps David's sermon on Honouring Your Parents For Your Sake. hmmm. i guess after listening to it, it hit right to my heart, but at the same time, i just wondered how i can do it. dont you?
i mean, its like asking you to sit through the normal chapel talking about you and God and all, yes, what was spoken made sense to you... oh, so now what? i hope u get the picture.

but of cos im not going to leave my thoughts hanging there.. im praying about it. or rather, going to. :) it gives me a sense of peace you see. ANYWAY, so after that i went breakfast with my parents, and i met tiffy at Plaza Sing after that. oucccch, two bai ka walking around = v v tired HAHAA. so after that, we went taka's the better toys store and we stood there for freaking long just to play one set of dumb game. NICE... HAHAHA so in the end we went to bp for the gathering.
durian was yummmmmmmy. :)

apart frm that, i was quite tired to move about, or talk. and whatever.. lol.

and now im home with the stupid criket trying to annoy me?!!?!? WHERE ON EARTH IS IT!!

how could this happen to me..

2008-11-09T21:20:00.001+08:00

biaaaaang. eversince that day idk hear from who the phrase 'heng gar lau sai' .. i think its paul. and recently i just told keith that i want to lau sai 5kg too. GUESS WHAT.

my tummy has been feeling strangeeeeeeee. and both friday and today i lau sai-ed.

now is really sian gar lau sai.

my tummy is acting strange again.

ahhhh sian ah.

You Don't Have To Be Satisfied With Just That

2008-11-09T10:03:00.003+08:00

Even before i went for service ytd, i knew that i've been slack in my walk for this week. aaawwww. its the after EVERYTHING kind of holiday mood. and indeed i was reminded that i dont have to be satisfied with just that you know?

there is so much more to know, so much more to experience.. and i told God i WONT settle for something lesser than what i know i can have from Him. and to pray so much for asking God to help me not be slack in my Christian walk, and i think actions speaks louder than just words.
and many said that God wont help a man who wouldnt even help himself, so i guess, yes. and i tot i was much motivated when i got home. i settled my today list into a few categories, came up with Christmas list, tried to settle so meet up dates.. :) my life is back to normal, back to.. not so slack and more up and going! lol.

and jeanie was v v sweet to buy me bubble tea. and i was chatting with zeh after i got home ytd.. there's just too much lost time between me and ___. and sometimes its really good to have a sister.. now everyone who doesn't says : aaaaaawwwwwwww. HAHHAHAHA ok lame. :D

anwwww im excited! :)
oh did i say i met jolyn for swim and slack at her place? lol. quite fun and we talked about alot of things. yep. and tmr im mtg faith and kh. woohoo.
and im going shopping with tiff on wednesday ( again HAHAHA )

and i think i need to start working. :S

goooooooooo xian!

joke of the day

2008-11-05T23:18:00.002+08:00

HAHAHHAA

`shaphone says:
if you were a boy.
`shaphone says:
i think i woudl chase you.
`shaphone says:
HAHAHAHAHAH
yixian - says:
ARE YOU SERIOUS LOL
yixian - says:
u must be crazy
yixian - says:
its late, i know
yixian - says:
HHAHAHA

nice. LOL. how about if SHE is a boy. HAHAHAH sounds more like it.

FATTTT

2008-11-04T15:14:00.000+08:00

go kerriann's house = food = FATＴＯTHEＭＡＸNOW

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

2008-11-02T13:36:00.001+08:00

:) i... dont wanna studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

On A Saturday Night

2008-10-29T09:33:00.002+08:00

In Between By Linkin Park

Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say

But trying to be genuine was harder than it seemed
But somehow I got caught up in between

Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say

But trying to be someone else was harder than it seemed
And somehow I got caught up in between

[Chorus]
Between my pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way

And things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none
[End Chorus]

Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say

But trying to regain your trust was harder than it seemed
But somehow I got caught up in between

[Chorus]
Between my pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way

The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none
The only thing that's worse than one is none
[End Chorus]

And I cannot explain to you
And anything I say or do or plan

Fear is not afraid of you
But guilt's a language you can understand

I cannot explain to you
And anything I say or do
I hope the actions speak the words they can

[Chorus]
For my pride and my promise
For my lies and how the truth gets in the way

The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse is

Pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way

The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none
The only thing that's worse than one is none
The only thing that's worse than one is none
[End Chorus]

PS :i thought it was such an apt song until saturday night. still, im trying to find it back.

where change is constant-

2008-10-25T22:34:00.003+08:00

hello pals im baaaaccccck!

first up! my promos results suck but thats what i deserved, so im pretty much satisfied with it.
and next thing is.. training are back as usual and im having funnnnnn :D ahem.. but sometimes i get too playful, i know. :S right.

anyways, this week has been pretty much blessed. really. it seems like this week is the longest week, because had OP stuff and even skipped school to go kerri's hse and all.. HMMMM. the school term ended on a v strange note, because.. it doesnt feel like it! im hoping to meet up with some of them during the hols to have some fun, ;) ohhhhhh yes. OP --> :) & :( hhahaha!

okay have been facebooking with jolyn during all our breaks cos schools simply BORING. and i must say im quite addicted cos liting post up pictures so fast and jolyn and i finally succeeded in winning paul in word challenge HAAHHAHAH fun.
and the strangest thing happens.. cant believe i went for pizza w paul and dan after school. super impromtu. :S which is i think is strange. :S

HMMM. as i've said to my closer ones, i'm indeed privileged to be part of the ministry. hmm. i'm still trying. i know its not easy. and i tremble each time i take the mike. AWWW. but yup. still learning.

"A man came to a Christian and asked, 'What if heaven didn't turn out to be like what you would have wanted it to be?'. He laughed and replied, 'Ohwells! I'd a good time making my way here!' "

and this is what i meant, ;)

Take A Step Back

2008-10-23T19:43:00.000+08:00

Love?

Love.

PW mtg

2008-10-21T18:27:00.002+08:00

ok hi so dan kerri and i skipped school today to do pw. i simply just love it. HAHHAHAHA
even though i was ultra tired , i couldnt even wake up this morning laaaaa! and genius dan set it to meet at 9 downstairs. one champion.

anyway, no joke, keep travelling from our hse to kembangan is an hour's ride. ?!!?!? :S
kerri ann is an ultra good host - she everytime offer to make food and drinks for us wow and super power. and today is just one joke becos DESMOND GAYED WITH DANIEL . and HAHAHHA ghims actually replied after receiving the MMS - to des: NOOOOOOOOOO... YOU CANNOT DO THIS TO ME.. ---- one big joke la!

pw model building and chit chatting was super fun laa... we all agreed to have it at least once more after their As chinese wooohoo.

:D ok this week is strange.. i feel strange. nvm. ohwells!

God's comfort

2008-10-19T18:51:00.002+08:00

PW sleepover is.. FUN!

PS: when you know her, you can really love her. :)

all good things are meant to be shared ;)

2008-10-08T21:00:00.002+08:00

Okay so my promos are finally over!

and i've a testimony to share.

ok, thats actually my unlce's testimony. which im very encouraged.

after my physics paper on monday i wanted to pop by my auntie's place near school, i wanted to visit my uncle too, even though they stay very near each other, i didnt know the way to my uncle's place.. so hahhaa, i thot its good enough to visit my auntie. :P

JUST as i was taking the bus to my auntie's place , my uncle so coincidentally boarded the bus too!!! :D amazing heh. and i really think that its by divine appointment. ;)

btw, my uncle has been seriously ill since 2006, because of his bad smoking and drinking habits during his younger days, only 30% of his lungs are working now.. yes its true..

me: eeeeeeeeh ah gu ! ( uncle in hokkien ) why are you here!
uncle: ohhhhh i went to buy lunch..
me: okay.. so how're you?

he told me he begin attending church of our saviour tgt with my cousin ( which is his daughter ) .
and there is this one thing different about him . ;)

as i said, he was very ill in 2006, everyone thought he's going to die already, but thank God he didnt. he received Christ at his 'deathbed' and God is very good to him, he's miraculously healed, and though his condition is still quite bad now, he says he's very happy.

uncle: you know ah, im very grateful to God already, i was supposed to die in 2006, but God gave me 2007, 2008 now.. im already very happy..

and he shared with me about how he goes to church now and pray, and healing sessions where other people pray for him, IM SO VERY ENCOURAGED. he didnt believe God until 2 yrs back, and i believe that it is really in God's time that he has come to know Him. :) im so very happy! and he shared with me about his walk with God and all, his wife, which is my auntie, told me that he became less short tempered after receiving Jesus..

and im sure this change is a gradual one becos i rmb her saying in the beginning of the year that my uncle's temper is still quite bad..

now that my cousins has brought my uncle to know God, leaving her mother the only one who chooses to believe in other gods.. my uncle says: pray, we do pray for her now.. but really, its not time yet now.. in God's timing, she will..

its been very encouraging to speak to my frail uncle, and i really think that i needed this. =)
this is really what i call , a divine appointment.

greatest forumula ever.

2008-09-29T21:55:00.003+08:00

4 girls + Spirit of Truth + GOD as the centre of EVERYTHING + love = happiness + joy + a new beginning .

Forgive.

2008-09-27T00:50:00.003+08:00

Forgiveness is not:

Saying that what the person did was not wrong
Absolving the person from responsibility for their actions
Denying the wrong occurred
Pretending the abuse did not happen.
Forgiveness is:

Letting go of your need for revenge
Cutting the person loose
Refusing to let bitterness and hatred rule your life.
Are you ready to be free? Let's look at six steps to forgiveness. We'll wrap up our prayer time and "Now It's Your Turn" all in one today.
Six Steps to Forgiveness
Let me walk with you through six steps to forgiveness that might help you in the process:

On a piece of paper, write the name of the person who has hurt you.
Write down how the person hurt you (i.e. rape, verbal abuse, sexual abuse, neglect, betrayal, desertion, rejection, etc.)
Write down how you feel about that person. Be honest. God knows how you feel.
Decide to forgive. Forgiveness is not a feeling but a decision of the will. God will never tell us to do something without providing the power to obey. He has told us to forgive and will give us the power-- but it all begins with the decision to do so.
Take your list to God and confess your forgiveness to Him. "Lord, I come to You today and give up my unforgiveness. I forgive_____for __________. At this moment, I choose not to hold his/her offense against him/her, but put them into your hands. I pray that you will heal my emotional wounds and help me to be able to help someone else with the same comfort you have given me. I cut ______ loose."
Destroy the list. As a visual exercise, destroy the list. Some have taken the list to a safe place, such as a fireplace, and burned it. Others have actually nailed the paper to a wooden cross. Still others have written the person's name that they are forgiving on a helium balloon and released it to heaven. However you choose, give the name to God.

if this might help you. ;)

why the facade.

2008-09-25T09:30:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder what really happened.
sometimes i wonder why are the so many unspoken rules.
sometimes i wonder, why do you even claim that we are good friends.
maybe thats just on my part.

ten thousands things have changed.
i wonder why sometimes i have to play along and be some hypocrite.
how disgusting.

when promos ends.

God is the Solution!

2008-09-14T19:01:00.002+08:00

hey guys guess what!

at first i was still worried and all that im not gonna have time to revise and do STBAPMIMSS planning and all cos i got 1000o deadlines to meet recently? but God is good and when we learn to lay it down before Him, He'll help us, because, Time is in His hands.

and now that mtg is postponed and revision is getting slightly better, and wr deadline is tmr im glad cos i wont have pw marathon any time soon.

and saw kenghwee ytd! cos noella tiffy and i went to eat durians after dinner at gombak . heh. coolios.

learning pt : Christians =/= sinless. Christians and to be sensitive to sin, Matt 5:4

Overcomer

2008-09-09T22:21:00.002+08:00

if God brings me to it, He promised He will help me overcome because as Christians, we are more than conquerors in Christ. ;)

i have a God to depend on in all situations, and i want to let you know that, you can have this privilege too. :)

"Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.” - Jesus

Hosanna

2008-09-09T17:45:00.001+08:00

I see the King of glory
Coming on the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes
I see His love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing, the people sing

[Chorus]
Hosanna, hosanna
Hosanna in the highest (x2)

[Verse 2]
I see a generation
Rising up to take the place
With selfless faith, with selfless faith
I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees, we're on our knees

[Bridge]
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

Tiffany

2008-09-02T20:26:00.002+08:00

hello dear, this post is specially dedicated to you. :)

you know, reading your blog has always been very encouraging. though you dont update it very often, but even re-reading your previous posts makes me happy! and guess what, i guess thats the very evident that Christ is alive in YOU dear. :) im so very happy to see you excited and all, and i somehow have this vision that.. you will one day play a very impt role as someone similar to an evangelist, leading R-age becoming excited about evangelism. this is the very talent that God has placed in you i supposed! :D anyway, i suggested to noella that we girls should come early like 7pm for P&Ps, to pray for each other first. ;)

love you,
xian.

PS: CHRIST ALIVE IN US!

i suck.

2008-08-26T22:24:00.001+08:00

note to self : you don need the same thing to happen twice to know that you really suck.

2008-2008!

2008-08-20T23:07:00.002+08:00

:DDDDDDDDD

honestly im overjoyed because of physics. HAHAHHA okkkkkkkay. both econs and phy i got 13. but econs suck ttm cos econs =13/25 = SUCCCCCCCK. but phy, incredibly! 13/20! i thought i would fail honestly.. there's alot of method / formula marks if not i would have just died. HAHAHHA :D and today had GP MOCK. how horrible is that . and i slept after i had nothing more to write for paper one. woohoo! nice power nap :D hahha
but paper two simply suck. i think i messed up my AQ. i changed stand after writing for 5 mins, which means i have to rewrite :( and i was writing nonsense, i promise. :(

and quoting jolyn, life is bleak! HAHAHA

well, at least not this week! :D awesome possum coolios its true its true!

MY WEEK!

2008-08-17T21:18:00.002+08:00

ahem.

yes. school was quite rough this week, with WR + STBAPMIMSS stuff to clear, i couldnt really study for physics = fail. or, fail horribly. AHHHHH, im convicted to study VERY hard for physics for promos. anyone caught me for neglecting phy gets a prize! HAHAHAHA nah im kidding.
jiaxuan and i slept like anything on wednesday after school while waiting for the girls to finish their chinese mock. my gosh. HAHAHHAA and training was quite slack on wed cos we didnt have much time anyways.

AND ECONS LECTURE TEST ON THURS WAS :(((((((
why everyone like machiam can write so many things?! i could only write 2pages max. and lots of it were repetition and crap. gg-fied. :)
OHHHHHH
let me tell a story!
i was considering to skip pe on thursday? so i could sleep in a little later and go to school. ahem. yes very bad, but i was dead tired. and HEY, i didnt pon in the end okay. but the thing was, when i was sleeping, i dreamt that the alarm went off at 620 and i knew for sure i was gg to be late so i went back to slp. guess what, at that v moment my alarm REALLY went off, at 6:00. uhuh, must be a sign! = no excuse to say pon. riggggght.

and i went to pj to crash their night study programme with kityee :) its okay. just that i cant believe how crowded it was. and i saw jiahua! she was shock to see me too. HAHAH. her dad sent me home then.

friday was LONG! but trg was funny ttm. tiring bcos of the muscle aches and jelly legs, ahem. well. im just not up to standard i guess! i need to train my will power! and sick as it may sound, i miss vlee's training. or more of the company. ): neeeeeeeh. and we had freeee food after trg! it saved us time and money cos we wanted to go jumbo for team dinner. hahahhaha. the CF's event catered food and we cleared most of it cos no one else wanted alr. HAHAHHAHA cheapooooos i know.

sat was a freaking long day, but i had fun! and im really glad that STBAPMIMSS is really a movement. i mean, i observe that in my cell the girls are getting exxcited about sharing their faith, which is good! ;)

and for all you guys who are wondering what STBAPMIMSS means, it stands for, So That By All Possible Means I Might Save Some. 1Cor9:22.
and if at any point of time, i get pushy about sharing my faith with you, please tell me. i rather not lose the friendship that we share, but it doesnt mean that i will give up sharing my faith with you entirely. ;)

todayyyyyyyyyyyy is family dinner! my dad's bday is in 2days. :)

this week is gonna be hectic, im sure. but by the grace of God, i shall survive.
verse of the week : lam 3:21-22

cell paaaaarty!

2008-08-09T22:47:00.002+08:00

had party at steph's place today and im freaking tireddddddd! i bet no one would ever believed how much all of us actually ate..
its like, 1.5 big plate of tuna loaf ( awesome :D ) , 90% of yogurt cake ( ::DDDD) , beehoon, 2pkts of fried nuggets, BANDUNG(!) sparkling juices.. pasta.. ohmytian.. and POPCORN CAN. :S
HAHHAHAHAA

*phew* life is really.. busy! today's mentoring reminded me of how much i gave up. :( :) if you know what i mean, then you know what i mean.

and promos coming. oohhh and i learnt a new term : budget deficit. thats my issue now! :O

anyway, took some photos today, so if its not here, then its at facebooooook! :D

happiness and joy, bye!

Life's Great?

2008-08-07T22:54:00.002+08:00

ahem im back.
im VERY tired. i hope to rest.. jc just sucked up all my energy. full batt also become low batt la. but yes, im enjoying trg with the girls! today had skipping.. ohmytian.. im tired.
ok bye.

lost it? got it.

2008-08-01T23:43:00.002+08:00

OK hello.

my friday morning was screwed up during pw. okay. maybe i just suck.
honestly i think dan, and des, you guys were so awesome in keeping cool. maybe its just me, seriously. des can like repeat the exact same thing for atleast FIVE times without a change in tone. like, nice. totally amazing la! i just couldnt.

and to kerriann, i'm just lost for words. not that i mean it in a bad way, but i really got nothing to say. if i should ever say sorry, it wouldnt be becos i gave her a piece of my mind, it would be bcos (if it did ever) i sort of embarrassed her in the class. im sure its valid.. but just tat things could have been carried out in a better manner, this i agree.

seriously after talking to ps cx made me think alot. hmmm.

tmr's a long day.

lastest catchphrase: awesooooome. aw. ;)

I miss...

2008-07-20T21:20:00.003+08:00

I miss being less busy, I miss going kbox with the girls, like really. :(
I miss shopping. I miss trying nice beautiful clothes. I miss being petite. I miss being just a little more carefree.

I miss the kind of feeling that I had when I thought I held back time.

change is the constant.

its been some time

2008-07-17T17:56:00.002+08:00

hello beloveds.
this week has been quite good and bad. and one random fact: i keep thinking tmr is saturday!!! its friday tmr anws. hurray!

and i sort of fell sick on monday. so i skipped sch on tues. haiya. long story. nvm.

anwwwww, peiyi, im very lazy to do the quizzy u asked me to, hahahha, i will if one day i am free and i rmb! promisssssssssse.

tmr i can finally try Faith's potato salad. my fav ttm. :D

ok short and sweet.

beware of flu bugs,
bye.

love,
yixian

4km.

2008-07-07T20:35:00.003+08:00

i went for a run today and im amazed that i actually survived it. went with kityee and she was a good listener and adviser, i realise. she made me realise something from another perspective, which what elliot would have said, a differnt kettle of fish, yes?

it is up to us to maintain our friendship with one another, and i should stop feeling that way. the point is, i felt much better after i said everything out. like, i just wanted someone to know. and i did felt bad when i had those thoughts in mind, and that song in my stone just reminded me of their credits. i still love. and i regret being angry/pissed/disappointed.

there's long day tmr and i seriously feel like ponning. nvm, i shall be a good girl and survive it! YES! i secretly miss a friend of mine.

love is patient, love is kind. love is...

it must be!

2008-07-07T00:09:00.003+08:00

yes, shawn said smth rather ingenious and it must be by the anointing of the Holy Spirit!
no true friendship is achieved without some friction.

in every season,
I know You love me,
I know You love me.

getting tighter.

2008-07-05T23:56:00.000+08:00

this few days is madness.
and i just want to escape.
God help.

heyoooo

2008-07-02T21:10:00.002+08:00

Jeanie is right, i spent so much time doing ministry, and so little time to study, yet I could get passable results. i mean, honestly, it is by the grace of God. and somehow, i forgot to thank God. but im reminded! :D

PRAISE THE LORD :D

2008-06-30T12:31:00.002+08:00

ok dumb fact one of the day: yixian just realised her trg resumes on NX tues insteand of this tues! :D:D:D:D

anw, i met zeh aft her service for lunch and work. im pretty glad to hear from you zeh. maybe i might appear dumb and patronizing and nua most of the time, but trust me, all of the above is not true when i spoke to you AHAHHAHAHHA.

and right, im getting very tired. idk why. and i had a WEIRD dream last night. :S no idea. ANW, I AM TOTALLY EXCITED FOR THIS WEEK COS I SUDDENLY HAVE GOT SO MUCH TIME :D:D

praise the Lord! :D:D

forgetting what is behind...

2008-06-28T09:11:00.002+08:00

im quite tired now cos i woke up at 7plus when i slept at 1am?! i was freaking cold despite my blanket is so thick :( and i had a LONG chat with God. i cant believe He is so ingenious. HAHAHHAHAHA.

its 926AM AND WHAT THE CRAP..?! sigh. and about terms. i cant believe im so dumb. see what happened:
day one : dumb level two ; i waited for my mother to come and pick me then after an hour she told me she's not coming. rigggght. happens.

day two : dumb level SEVEN ; i had math and chem paper. as everyone else would have put it, math was quite a killer. and now chem. I FORGOT TO THAT THERE'S SECTION C. hey pal, its 20 marks yea? and during the exam i was still wondering, eh, hw come they give us f/scape paper ah.. ? then i knew why at the last 15mins. :'(

day three: dumb level two: econs was ok-ok. bt i gave quite a few i-know-i-wont-get-marks-for-writing-this-but-i-still-wanna-crap answers. yes. and met keith for phy revision. phy.. yes phy.. you cant blame me for being slow at phy.. -.-

last day: dumb level FIVE; ok guess what. the paper started at 0808, supposed to end 0938, but bcos my vision is slightly blocked frm the board, i thot the paper would end at _ _ 08. so i supposed it was 0908. so i freaking chiong everything and panic etc until 915 i was like, : eh, how come the tchers still dont want to collect.. ? and right then, the teacher said smth like, u have about 15 more mins, paper ends at 0938. then i was like BIANG, im so dumb.

So, after being so dumb.. i met tiffy up for HAIRCUT. ok, my sister thot i look quite adorable in short hair but she thinks long hair suits me MUCH better. :S ohwells. NVM, my hair grows preeeetty fast okay. caught WANTED with elliot and tiffy. and i get so scared at almost every bloody scene that elliot kept nudging me and laugh at me?!?! rigggght. but i would say i enjoy the movie. EXCITING NEH. :D hahhahahaa! ok apart frm that everyone fell silent then abit seh.

and chat with jon last night! YAY KARIMUN DINNER!!! and jon is so nice to offer to go with me from church. ok great, i have company! :D cant wait you know.

and i think its time to start mugging for promos if i dont wish to retain. 3months torture, starting soon. HAHHAHA. AS IF!

terms?

2008-06-25T20:01:00.001+08:00

as liting puts it in her pm: failed terms.

and right, thank God keith came to rescue me with his mighty brain just now.

Your life

2008-06-22T09:39:00.002+08:00

you know sometimes i think that no matter how much we say can have no effect on another person?

i was just reminded of a friend.

not only me, but a few others have constantly encourage, advised, warned, this friend but it seems like there's no pt in us telling cos it just doesnt work.

and even this friend knows what he/she has been doing with his/her life. sometimes, i guess its not up to the people arnd us to determine how you choose to lead your life? and sometimes even though you know the consequences, or maybe saw/see it coming, you wouldnt change from your ways?

maybe sometimes, its just to let others fall and and have a taste of how bad the fall is. if even then he/she doesnt learn, idk how else to help.

at this pt of time, im not invovled in his/her life,we dont even meet up. not that i delibrately want to distant myself away, becos im too tired of encouraging, hoping the best for him/her, yet there's not much changes. and somehow i think i dont want to 'mother' him/her anymore. let nature takes it course i guess.

im quite certain that falling down would be the best way for him/her to learn.

studying..?

2008-06-21T08:41:00.003+08:00

ok hello idk how come im progressing so slowly. but somehow im enjoying the kick of lastmin studying. dung!

was thinking of karimun and friends on my way home ytd, and hahhahaa, i was reminded of how jon wong woke up at 625! amazing.

kbye.

we were meant to live for so much more

2008-06-17T01:16:00.002+08:00

i am, once again, overwhelmed.

and you. totally. ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ. i'm being polite.

coff.

2008-06-14T22:24:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings im back.
this week had been rather overwhelming.

oh and i'm so glad i got to catch up with shawn before i went m'sia. and i just had dinner with him. ohwell, life's unpredictable. nvm.

i just wanna say i love my cell kids. i only hope and pray that God will be the source of love in every of my relationship with ppl.

i realise im getting bored.

kbye.

retreaaaaaaaaaaaaaat

2008-06-08T23:42:00.001+08:00

wooohoooooo! i will be back on the 13th.

and i regret so much for not msging him. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

I think God can explain

2008-06-06T23:55:00.002+08:00

had a LONG day. im gg to spend my morning at home tmr. promise!
and today's friendly was rather interesting hahaha, i still rmb some funny scenes we had while playing.. everyone gets excited etc. LOL. and today my catchphrase is, cannot make it! lol.

so, aft that went to meet the churchies at je lib to mug. ok seriously. i lost touch. and i need my marked tutorials!!! roar. and sometimes, things are just so different. i kinda need to pray. hmmm.

ok yes. let me talk abt something funny last night! we were heading for match and we were like almost late, and the girls and i were like not in the least panicky mood but jun was like shall-we-take-a-cab-down? hahaha and here it goes:

tiffy: do not worry.. i just read the bible only, God says DO-NOT-WORRY
Yx: ERM, YA.. HAHHA, jun, nvm la~~ its coming really..
jun: then did ur bible tell you when is bus 165 coming?!?!?! (cos we kinda waited for 15mins? )
yx: aaeeeeeeer. You see, jun , over there, right infront? it will come like, in 10 secs, IN JESUS' NAME! HAHAHHAHA
jun: . . . dont have la!
yx: ehhhhhh i not magician siah, i Christian ok!

maybe only the three of us would find this funny. but whoever was there would just laugh at you jun! hahahhaha.

and today, had bbq with 4P2. ok i secretly missed bickering with alvin but today we didnt really had any verbal fight? HAHAHA, ok but yes, it was fun once again to crap with them esp dion who is really ultimate lame king. cannot make it ah! ahahha. and hongwei. mad. izni. lol so much crap. but i had fun. :D

:O its 12am now. :S :S :S
ohdearohdear, byeeeeeeeee!

PS: I MISS SHAWN. :(

tiring tuesday

2008-05-28T15:24:00.003+08:00

yes it was!

and guess what, thanks to my wonderful pw mates like dan and des who made me go all the way to holland to EAT. :DDD huuray! hahhaaaa. okay, and i slacked at jiaxin's place before match.. BUT, match was horrible. seriously. i promise we have nvr been more xiasuay than this. lol, but i take it quite easy la, nvm la~~~ like what grace said, we are really lao ren alr.

and yes, thank God grace came to play! :) and seriously, i dont really care abt the match, i care more abt the time we spent tgt. it's quite short ytd, but i had fun! i hope they had fun too. long time no play. lol.

and i got home at 1130. ohhhh and my daddy is so nice. he drove all the way frm west to central to pick me up! thank God for daddy if not i will reach home at like midnight. and i almost died while trying to wake up this morning. -.-

OH, and today..
trg was .. quite tough for me at some pt in time.. i guess its both my skills and my stamina cannot make it. i wonder how i managed to did those stuff just a few yrs back. and tiffy, i miss doing that drill with you. :( now i feel sucky cos i cant do it anymore. ;(
apart frm trg, pt and all the sunshine and rain all at one time, i had fun with beverly and karen eating at dover market. HAHAHAA. esp when i tot WH was a young chap and it turns out that they were talking abt coach. ><>

the most impt point is, God made my day.

and, still, meeting dearest fourpeeeeetwo later at cwp for movie! :DDDDDDDDD i secretly miss certain combination : zach + dion , jiawei+ alvin + hongwei + zuokun , etc etc etc. ok good loads of crap later. and guess what, i just found out tiffy is gonna pangseh us for cell! okay, u cant have the best from both worlds.. lol!

Being Transparent.

2008-05-24T22:39:00.002+08:00

I was once again happy to be back in bp playing volleyball :) its not the same as playing with other ppl, because like what jiaying said, even though we didnt play tgt for such a long time alr, our chemistry is still there. which is true. we have the confidence we have when playing tgt, -in ourselves and with each other, that is.

i miss playing so much.

on a lighter note, i was bless by how transparent my pastor is with his life, with his past. it might have come to many of us as a shock, but it is because he is convinced that God has really changed him and he has let go of it, thats why he had spoken in this manner. wouldnt u agree that, you would talk about something unglamourous abt you when you have finally let go of it? its like a breakup too. when u finally let it go, u wouldnt mind ppl asking etc.

and yes, i'm spending quite alot recently, so i have decided to take on the job of being my sister's secretary! i hope i can cover up my expenses, seriously.
and if have something to offer to me, the best thing would be prayers. ;) and yes, im going off for mission trip nx week! and my ___ is not on time. :( plsssssss.

tmr im having yet another long day. i rlly hope to rest before the trip. may God be with me as i enter a new week! :D

anw, HAPPY HOLIDAYS AND HAAPY SHOPPING IN GSS! :DDDDD

and He says,

2008-05-22T22:50:00.001+08:00

"My grace is sufficient for you. "

i thought i asked for it, all this nonsense. but im hopeful to see a change for the better.

Secretly.

2008-05-19T18:31:00.002+08:00

hahhahaa, ok no longer a secret hahahaha!

the thing is.. im awfully pleased with my entire long weekend. hooo! i managed to rest quite a fair bit.. and im all excited for school! actually, only the training. :) i cant wait to train!

and horrid news. im getting so fat that i cant fit in alot of my clothes which i can previously. and thats not too long ago. im freaking big-size for a girl. :(((( hahaha, the good thing is, my future husband will love me not cos my appearance but really for who i am. HAHAHAHHAHA. but can i have the best from both worlds? :DDDD

ok, have started reading A Voice in the wind, and its soooo interesting! just finished my ECONnect, and im going to relax and read my book later. wooohooo, life rocks!

i've realised..

2008-05-16T23:18:00.002+08:00

im spending alot of time outside, and very little time at home, and i dont like it. no, im not out playing all the time, dont get me wrong.

im very happy that friday is here, almost gone. HAHAHA. so by right, weekends are here! :D :D :D and Kityee, i miss you.. we spend time mugging tgt in june. and of cos, nt forgetting to play, abit. ;) woohooo!

im so excitedddddddddd. about EVERYTHING, except work. :( lol. anw, i had fun in school sharing with ghimhwee about our walk and stuff, and i thank God for friends who encourage. hai, this is a tough walkkk..

OKAY I LOVE MY LIFE BYE FRIENDS.

:]

2008-05-15T20:28:00.002+08:00

random facts:

john little is having 20% storewide! :D:D:D:D not to buy clothes, but to buy___ .
ms tang called me and she wants me to join vball :)
im joining vball!
i cant wait for holidays.
i secretly hate school. ok maybe i hate work.
life in the mystery is stuck my head.
shucks i have alot of work to do i realise.
i'm failing my phy test, but im so prepared for a retest. hahah!
huishi noella and i are going to have the same ___. hahhahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i need to buy a new bag for school!
life shucks as much as it rock. woohoo.

When we see you we find strength to face the day~ ;)

Last Year.

2008-05-12T21:47:00.003+08:00

like what mel said, this was taken during our happier days ;) miss you very much.

and while i was listening to a song my beloveds uploaded for me... its the song that jun used to motivate us during our trying period as bpvb. and here you go, thanks jun, for watching over us, and taking care of us, even till now.

Don't lose your way with each passing day
You've come so far, don't throw it away
Live believing, dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story, Faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by, for you and I

Souls in the wind must learn how to bend
Seek out a star, hold on till the end
Valley, mountain, there is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Worlds are swaying, someone is praying
Please let them come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by, for you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark, we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts … Everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by, for you and I

I dont deserve.

2008-05-10T23:08:00.002+08:00

im awfully overwhelmed by all that has happened in the past 24 hours. God is the greatest provider of all things, everything. and truly, i dont deserve. i have so much to say, but i want to dedicate to each and everyone of them, personally.

Grace, is when God gives when you dont deserve.

prayers answered.

AWESOME

2008-05-09T21:51:00.002+08:00

ytd dinner with shawn was AWESOME. we had kenny rogers at great world city and the potato salad totally rock, I PROMISE. esp when a minor accident happened when he touched the soda bottle, it made my birthday even more memorable, HAHA. it was COOL when it dropped and hit the table with a loud thud, woohoo! it was a good time for us catching up :) and i reached home at 11plus and was so dead tired. :S blame the 300 for its low frequency.

today i had fun tooooooo :D meet up with yujuan after sch and we caught the iron man! ITS TOTALLY AWESOME. pls go and watch it, i promise its 5 stars (for me) :DDD and long john was superb. the fish is wooohooooooo! hahaha, sorry, i 've got limited vocabulary, just all the excitment adj. AHAHHAA. and we talked quite a fair bit, and catching up more tmr during trg! yay! i think, i miss volleyball too much that i cant bear to quit playing. love ;) oh oh oh! and i bot this VERY CUTE elmo pouch! then i realised its flawed, but still, i like it alot! :D

and while i was on my way home, i saw jun farah xinni and dionne! so they were having a talk on how-to-be-a-good-captain! i joined them and its fun sharing my experience :) sigh, it makes me feel old too. :S ohwell. AND I REALISE PJ IS PLAYING AGAINST NY AGAIN ON MONDAY! its 230, i canooooooooooot go!!!!! so pissed off. and.... if you can read my mind ;)

hurray, i have 5 tests nx week PLUS econs e-article presentation. God bless yixian. hooo!

birdddddddfffday.

2008-05-08T16:49:00.002+08:00

:D im very happy. elated!

as compared to last year,today is definitely so much more enjoyable. pls, i was mugging for papers on my bday for soooo many years, but this year, YAY . ;)
i was secretly happy when i receive so many b'day msgs, because, its quite rare that ppl rmb my b'day, really. i woke up in shock, 15 msgs. :O then after pe i had another shock, 9 msgs. and through out the day it kept coming, and one reason i know its because meiyin told the whole cell abt it, and yes, i rlly appreciate it.

if you think that im going haolian, then BEAR WITH ME! how often do i get to do that. :D but yes, when its morning assembly i was like whaaaaaat. my class is really very nice to me. Kh, jolyn, faith, zy, lt,wy bought a gigantic winnie the pooh ballon for me! its VERY NICE i promise. :D pooh look so chubbbbbbby its like right WOA, see alr my heart can melt lor. :) and of cos, the card and a keychain gift with a verse on it. THANKS alot guys. :)

and whats more, iris made the class sing a b'day song! but, actually i was VERY paiseh. like, i dont think i deserve that? but still, i appreciate all of them for making my day! :D
and val! YOUR GIFT ROCKS MY SOCKS. its sooo cool! and hey, since when did i ever look at price to judge the gift! i rlly like it, its more than enough :)

and while i was regretting about my decision to go nj last year, today God showed me i was wrong. Ailing, Cindy and Edison msged me, and i was really thankful cos they actually rmbed! what more, edi's msg was : happy birthday dian.. ! etc. I AM DIAN! that definitely brings back sooo many wonderful memories. and later jitsheng msg me and it totally scare the crap out of me. which later i found out that his sji friends stole his phone and played this prank -.- is that childish or, CHILDISH. hahaa!

and im meeting shawn later! its been quite long since we last catchup, and i really want to eat kenny rogersss. and on a side note, i can be so carefree today when gpp submission deadline is tmr is all because of my wonderful friends like dan and desmond. seriously they rock la. so commited. and now i wonder whats going to happen to her.. :S

photos.. another time. i have 5 tests next week and im playing today tmr and sat. woohoo. champion la! yes, im meeting yujuan tmr for movie! :D hmmm, maybe we can go shopping too. :)

and i suddenly rmb that i had nafa today. seriously, i tot everything must get A to get gold, then i realise dont need siahhhh. woohooo! then im not going to re-run 2.4, nor inclined pull up.. :D and mad gave my a birthday hug today, so cute. peiyi too. :) its great to have you guys around :D

i realise i have too much in my tweeny brain that i want to say, but i decided that i shouldnt waste time. ok bye!

my cry.

2008-05-07T22:33:00.002+08:00

Dear God,

what a twist of fate, and now, i regret. but, till the momement-

highlights

2008-05-06T23:13:00.002+08:00

i got 17/20 for PHYSICS test. :D
i took the wrong train, AGAIN. :S
i did PW for a total of 7 hours or more today. :S
i wish i could spend my birthday more meaningfully.
i wished i didnt run so badly for 2.4
i wish i could meet shawn tmr, but looking at my workload, i doubt so.
the pw tcher better listen to what i say tmr. !

ok bye.

the beginning, and the end.

2008-05-05T21:03:00.007+08:00

Corrinne May

2008-05-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Yet you choose to be on the side of me
on the side of me

I'm not too proud of some things
I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide

Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Blessed Charity
You're on the side of me
on the side of me

Everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
but you

I'm not the easiest person to love
But you, you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth

'Cause you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
What a mystery
You're on the side of me
on the side of me

Everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go

I remember when nobody cared
Nobody cared
But you...

Yeah you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me

curiosity kills the cat

2008-05-01T21:08:00.002+08:00

and hello, im back, my labour day sucks with the crappy workload, but thank God that noella was with me. ;)

and the more i think about it, the more uneasy i feel. what on earth has that got to do with meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. yixian you should just go and bang the wall.
or maybe, its just life.

erm bye.

beats me.

2008-05-01T00:14:00.002+08:00

i just did some blog hopping and I confirmed something that I suspected. hahaha, its very random, but, ya. im surprised that im actually affected. that matter hardly concerns me, I promise. so, why, thats strange. :S

on a lighter note, I went town with peiyi after the sports meet today! :D its been a very long time and its good to relive everything once again. but yet again, things have changed, nothing is constant, only change is constant, learnt that from kitty.

had subway! :D its seriously nice, esp when both of us were famished. and yes, im so pissed with campus corner! they dont allow me to change my platypus! angry. IT MUST BE BECAUSE IM WEARING SCH U AND THEY THINK I'M YOUNG. HMP. and thats like whatever. nvm. had a great time looking arnd in suntec, aaaaawwww how i wish i got 10,000 dollars and buy 10,000 things now. :(

AND, i went for ben and jerry's free cone day ytd! cool. :) i went to the great world's outlet, with kh and dan. its weird how we even decide to go tgt, LOL. it was yummmmmmmmmy. and the queue was so short! :D it was a day well-spent.

tmr's labour day, but i've tonnes to do. i just cant cant cant wait for holidays to come, jc life sucks.

PS: py and i saw a man wearing the MFC shirt with Mao instead of the KFC man, try and imagine ok. HAHAHHAHA

tick-tock.

2008-04-26T21:48:00.005+08:00

one week down.

so fast SIA. :S and this week was madness and i must say squash is fun! :D oooh ohh, how great monday only got one lesson my class will be away to support cheryl iris and clarence! :D hope they will do fine and do AC proud. :D

and cool! i wore the ' Your boyfriend is staring' shirt today and if not for the fact that its a clique tee i wouldnt have dared to wear that, i promise! HAHAHA!

and i gave up uploading the photos i took with noella shi and elliot. tsk. the file must be so big cos my comp just took SO long i promise. :S nvm~

tmr having regional mtg! i love my CM friends man, we are the coolest west region. :D HAHAHHA no kidding. who has ever done a regional bday dedication? :D who else but US ? HEHEHEHHEHE. looking forward to tmr.

and now, i have to rely on God to love this mate of mine. sigh.

"the truth is, we cant."

2008-04-19T22:48:00.002+08:00

only through my weaknesses, God can be glorified.

Let me see..

2008-04-18T22:01:00.002+08:00

OKAY ONE WEEK DOWN.

hurray that Chem SPA, GP test and Chem test are finally over.. but sad to say, im for sure not going to do well, damn hard la! :( but nvm, im nt the only one.

this week is really testing on my interpersonal skills. sigh, i find them very annoying but i know i must try to love them. i bet it isnt easy to love me as well, huh? hahhahaha! eh peiyi how you tahan me one ah. JAHAHAHHAHA.

and next up, oh did i mention my PI was approved? :D:D:D:D and i completed my final one just. i had a VERY hard time cutting the words down, trust me. its totally amazing i did it, thank God! :D hahhahaa. and and! i passed my gp essay test ok! :D well, i expect to fail and if u do take a look t my paper even from afar, you'll see the red stains ALL OVER the paper. and hey looking ahead, i have..

GP compre test, PHYSICS TEST, ECONS TEST and of cos final submission of PI next week. HOW GREAT. :S

i havent start studying for a single thing, and hey im for sure going to struggle with phy. I DONT WANT TO FAIL :((((((( im so miserable now. can i take MC on tues pls. sigh.

something to rejoice yet again! huishi and i FINALLY found our bunkmate. yay, i hope tmr still got vacancies. its quite sad if we're left out :( God pls, let us enjoyyyyyyy.

And yes, im so very excited abt the CIP camp coming up in June ( hopefully) and RETREAT and of cos, UNDER19 CHAMPIONSHIPS. yujuan's joining too! we can train tgt, again. :) love. and i want to go KBOX KBOX KBOX KBOX LA.

tmr.. bless me. ;)

l

REJOICE!

2008-04-16T21:05:00.003+08:00

:D:D:D:D:D:D

happiness X 10^infinity.

first up, thanksgiving to God becos my PI got accpected! :DDDDD happiness and joy~~
hahhahahah!
AND, i completed my GP package! trust me, its taking a toil on me. :( Yet, out of such a mundane activity.. HEHEHEHEHHE, suhui-jie told me she's the co-chair!!!! ohmytian,and she's going to call for the first meeting very soon! :DDDD happiness and joy. thank you Lord! :)

lalalala~
tmrrrrrrrr there's swim pe and right after that is Gp test. how wonderful~~
pray pray pray. and stephy is going for retreat! yay thank God! :D:D:D:D

ohright. my school is offering overseas CIP trip.. hmmm. ohwell, maybe i should just follow the mission trip. see how la~

next week got more tests, AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! :S

God's timely reminder

2008-04-13T18:47:00.002+08:00

i was just thinking about the issue abt me and my phy teacher, and the ____.
and i realise, i dont have to win.
things doesnt have to go my way , but so long its going God's way, its fine.

hallelujah, praise God!

reliving my anger

2008-04-11T23:10:00.004+08:00

everytime i talk abt it, i would feel the rage in me. its overwhelming.

mad and peiyi you guys just witness the yixian's-most-angry-day in acj. i cant stand it anymore. im trying very hard to give my phy teacher a second chance. the pace is going so slow i feel that i hardly learn anything at all during lesson. trust me, im not those kind that comes in class and rest my head on the table to catch a nap; i dont go in to talk nonstop like a chatterbox, neither do i just sit there and play my hp, or psp etc. COMEON, i tried/have been trying to give her my full attention but each and every lesson is testing my patience, i promise.

and i tried to be very Christian-like in handling this situation, i was fuming, and i tell you, if its years ago i would have walked out of the STUPID CLASSROOM AND SLAM THE DOOR FLAT AT HER FACE. i've done that before to my tuition teacher, i just slam the classroom door and walked right out. i didnt bother to step into that freaking place again. never. even though the tuition fees was paid. i was helping myself by crushing rough paper into paper balls, trying very hard to clasp my hands and mumbling for God to calm me down, it did help for a moment or two, but when i saw the time, i got even more furious. i really feel that the lesson time can be put into greater use. sigh. why do i feel so shortchanged! yes, im in H1 phy but i dont deserve to have my lessons time spent like that! trust me, i dont find it productive, at all. i tried VERY HARD to contain my anger. haha, i even told mad i wished there was a volleyball there for me to whack. i seriously need to transfer my energy out. ROAR.

"madam, i feel that i dont learn anything during lesson at all..." ----

i feedback to her DURING LESSON and AFTER lesson to let her know how i feel this entire thing is going but she doesnt seem to understand what im driving at. and she actually can come up with some irrelevant stuff to tell me. OMT. ><>

i dont need the best phy teacher in acj to teach me, i just want someone who can understands our way of learning, or teach us in the way that will benefit us the most. sze min was just a J3 and she was doing fine with her job. students raise questions, she goes through them and made sure we understand. i just need a teacher like that, why is it so hard! :((((((

i promise i wont hesistate to go to the HOD personally if things dont work out properly. i just want to have a good guide, im not asking too much, am i~?

hello my little friend.

2008-04-10T20:54:00.002+08:00

im getting amazingly tired, because the rest i get doesnt seem to make me feel any more energetic. God help.

monday chapel

2008-04-07T20:47:00.003+08:00

today i finally saw the guy - every morning, during chapel, devotion etc, he would say amen, yes Lord -without fail. and today i witness him jumping, and many others laughing- some are Christians. shame on you! he has some much zeal and that is his form of worship to God, why do you care? ur lips didnt lift up praises to God, yet u could be laugh at he has worships freely.

i admire him, really. for he i can say that he is definitely not ashamed of the gospel. it makes me feel inspired. jumping is his threshold, lifting my hands high to the lord is mine.

gossiping is really bad. bp was nvr so political. i hate those gossips. SIGH. but to know what is going on makes me see the picture. yet its like encouraging them to tell tales abt each other. how awful bunch of ppl we are. forgive me. and i really hope they have settled this issue. its barely a month or so. Lord, help.

i handed my pi in today, and i really pray that it will not get rejected. PLEASE. its freaking hard. and tmr there is a gp test. :( sian! i seriously dont know what to write, God give me inspiration! i hope i can give my best tmr and Lord will do the rest. but thank God pe wasnt that bad. my hands are getting wobbly. jolyn and i damn funny. we cant even hold our pens properly. HAHHAA. no muscle ache pls!! :(

i must turn myself into an ultimate mugger. friends, help me. HAHAHHAHA.

if only you care as much as i do.

2008-04-06T19:29:00.001+08:00

through it all

2008-03-30T20:45:00.002+08:00

HALLELUJAH cos i survived another week in acj! :D ups, and DOWNS, but thank God for church friends and of cos mad and peiyi who are in acj too. hmmm. oh well, i thank God for EVERYTHING. :D

i woke up abt the same as usual cos i managed to get a lift frm my classmate! thank God man. phew.
funorama wasnt fun until Lionel Jeanie Sam n Toh came!!! :D saw jeanie and i was ELATED. and we toured arnd; the came to my cafe stall! and my form teacher is actually THEIR teacher during their years in acj. ohgoodness so qiao can! dramatic irony : lionel dropped chemistry but he ended up in chemical(?) engineering or just smth to with chem. hmmm! hahhaa!

then~ they had to leave and it was my shift. shity stuff. nvm, and YAY cos noella mel lester keith and davchoo came :DDD love joy and happinesss! slacked arnd and went to queue for EMILY'S HOUSE for an hour can. it sucks and toh and i were siannn ttm cos we were in sch since seven? and our legs are aching la! but amanda's even worse, she came frm tanjong katong ( stand all the way on mrt) after her own school funfair. hoooo~ hahhaha. strong legs. i had extra coupons and i treated her to haunted house and we were both screaming and laughing inside the LT. HAHAHHAHA damn funny. i think the guys enjoyed it cos it was hilarious to see both of us jumping and screaming arnd. LOL. damn funny!

and boo cos i didnt get to see most of the 4P2 ppl. :( it was my shift when they came and then i was ultra busy. nvm~ hahahaa. nth exciting happened after that. and its saturday.

love joy and happiness! thats me noella and huishi! :D hahahha we studied tgt aft church and crapped awhile abt talent time for Rhema..

n: eh, u think we should have talent time during rhema?
x: what? im not even musically inclined can. :S
s: ya la!
x OH OH OOH , I KNOW, we can do be the bimbos ! sure win one, ppl can challenge us! HAHAHAH
s: yes and we can go like , oh my gosh, i think i need a medicure, the sun up there is bleaching all my gorgeous hair 27,64 i dont even know the score go go go fight fight fight gee i hope i look alright.
x,n: HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHA . sure win alr. HAHHAHAH!

time flies on saturday, sigh. what a short weekend. :( what motivates me to go sch tmr is actually chapel time. nods nods.