Tuesday, August 31, 2004
I m so depressed. I d0n understand wad hes up t0.. God, pls help me. I m so sad. so confused. he once made me fall in love wif vball. but now, l0ok wad he has done.. last time, he made me dislike vball. guess wad now? he made me HATE vball. really don understand lor..wala0. I wan to quit. but I nid help. I nid a [kao shan] 1st..*eVilgRins..*hahaha.. h0pe dat he don dare t0 ‘touch’ me wif tat help. =) I hate him. training sux. SUX for life. training hasn’t been wonderful ever since after e june hols. guess he’s having menopause. wahahhaah~~~ I wan help, n I nid it. haiz. wad m I supposed to do. life jus sux. tchers in BP jus sux. CCAs in BP sux too. e f0od dere SUX.. I jus cant c anything in BP tat d0esnt sux. well well well, BP is so lau~zy~ wahahhaa~ disgusting sku I hav got. haiz. jus hope tat I can go thru e following 3 yrs peacefully. dats all I prayed for. I wan PEACE~ I dowan u to control me. I donid to report to u anything tat I do. I don owe u anything xplaination. even my parents don control me tat much lik u did. dat will onli make me more rebellious. u r nt disciplining me. NO.NOT AT ALL. I join vball is to enjoy. honestly, I don care abt trophies. I don care abt fames. I wan to relax n enjoy. I wan to hav fun. u owaes think dat we did wrong things on purpose. u vent ur anger on us. thinking dat we r ur wending machines. u owaes says u r very angry, very annoyed. y do u hav to? y cant u xcept things? [kan kai yi dian.. bu yao zhe yang xin xiong xia zai] haiz. u don me to tch u how to make ur life happy n others ppl life happy rite. take things ez la. owaes take things so hard. no wonder u look so old. haiz. TRAINING SUX. U SUX. EVERYTHING SUX!