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Friday, April 11, 2008

reliving my anger

everytime i talk abt it, i would feel the rage in me. its overwhelming.

mad and peiyi you guys just witness the yixian's-most-angry-day in acj. i cant stand it anymore. im trying very hard to give my phy teacher a second chance. the pace is going so slow i feel that i hardly learn anything at all during lesson. trust me, im not those kind that comes in class and rest my head on the table to catch a nap; i dont go in to talk nonstop like a chatterbox, neither do i just sit there and play my hp, or psp etc. COMEON, i tried/have been trying to give her my full attention but each and every lesson is testing my patience, i promise.

and i tried to be very Christian-like in handling this situation, i was fuming, and i tell you, if its years ago i would have walked out of the STUPID CLASSROOM AND SLAM THE DOOR FLAT AT HER FACE. i've done that before to my tuition teacher, i just slam the classroom door and walked right out. i didnt bother to step into that freaking place again. never. even though the tuition fees was paid. i was helping myself by crushing rough paper into paper balls, trying very hard to clasp my hands and mumbling for God to calm me down, it did help for a moment or two, but when i saw the time, i got even more furious. i really feel that the lesson time can be put into greater use. sigh. why do i feel so shortchanged! yes, im in H1 phy but i dont deserve to have my lessons time spent like that! trust me, i dont find it productive, at all. i tried VERY HARD to contain my anger. haha, i even told mad i wished there was a volleyball there for me to whack. i seriously need to transfer my energy out. ROAR.

"madam, i feel that i dont learn anything during lesson at all..." ----

i feedback to her DURING LESSON and AFTER lesson to let her know how i feel this entire thing is going but she doesnt seem to understand what im driving at. and she actually can come up with some irrelevant stuff to tell me. OMT. ><>

i dont need the best phy teacher in acj to teach me, i just want someone who can understands our way of learning, or teach us in the way that will benefit us the most. sze min was just a J3 and she was doing fine with her job. students raise questions, she goes through them and made sure we understand. i just need a teacher like that, why is it so hard! :((((((

i promise i wont hesistate to go to the HOD personally if things dont work out properly. i just want to have a good guide, im not asking too much, am i~?


hello. I am Yixian. Interest? Father,Spirit,Son. How about YOU?:) Bituwin - template Dementee - image Words from Before It's Too Late by Goo Goo Dolls.	Friday, April 11, 2008 reliving my anger everytime i talk abt it, i would feel the rage in me. its overwhelming. mad and peiyi you guys just witness the yixian's-most-angry-day in acj. i cant stand it anymore. im trying very hard to give my phy teacher a second chance. the pace is going so slow i feel that i hardly learn anything at all during lesson. trust me, im not those kind that comes in class and rest my head on the table to catch a nap; i dont go in to talk nonstop like a chatterbox, neither do i just sit there and play my hp, or psp etc. COMEON, i tried/have been trying to give her my full attention but each and every lesson is testing my patience, i promise. and i tried to be very Christian-like in handling this situation, i was fuming, and i tell you, if its years ago i would have walked out of the STUPID CLASSROOM AND SLAM THE DOOR FLAT AT HER FACE. i've done that before to my tuition teacher, i just slam the classroom door and walked right out. i didnt bother to step into that freaking place again. never. even though the tuition fees was paid. i was helping myself by crushing rough paper into paper balls, trying very hard to clasp my hands and mumbling for God to calm me down, it did help for a moment or two, but when i saw the time, i got even more furious. i really feel that the lesson time can be put into greater use. sigh. why do i feel so shortchanged! yes, im in H1 phy but i dont deserve to have my lessons time spent like that! trust me, i dont find it productive, at all. i tried VERY HARD to contain my anger. haha, i even told mad i wished there was a volleyball there for me to whack. i seriously need to transfer my energy out. ROAR. "madam, i feel that i dont learn anything during lesson at all..." ---- i feedback to her DURING LESSON and AFTER lesson to let her know how i feel this entire thing is going but she doesnt seem to understand what im driving at. and she actually can come up with some irrelevant stuff to tell me. OMT. ><> i dont need the best phy teacher in acj to teach me, i just want someone who can understands our way of learning, or teach us in the way that will benefit us the most. sze min was just a J3 and she was doing fine with her job. students raise questions, she goes through them and made sure we understand. i just need a teacher like that, why is it so hard! :(((((( i promise i wont hesistate to go to the HOD personally if things dont work out properly. i just want to have a good guide, im not asking too much, am i~? 11:10 PM ·