Thursday, January 01, 2009
first09
Eversince the last post, I think that...
Yixian has been living in her own bubble.
Why so...?
You see, I wanted to end 2008 'well' in a way, but just before i could, i did something really insensible. ok maybe its just to me. in anycase, i was sort of convicted that its true that i've such a weakness and that.. AAAAAAH. its like, "hello yixian yes 2008 is coming to an end bt its not going to affect everything else, life goes on as usual and you still have to pay a price to learn lessons. dont think that even in the 48hours before 2009 comes there's nth much going to happen. so wake up your idea xian"
ok so tht was what happened.
and today, i heard the most shocking news in my life.
someone whom i know but lost contact with, is. is... is.. yea.
shock ttm.
and sometimes u cannot help but wonder, and somehow, as much as i think that i'm not responsible for it, i think that even at the most indirect manner, im one of the links in the long chain. and to be very honest, it did take me awhile to acknowledge that indeed God is still soveriegn and in control of the situation, that if this is the price that she has to pay for the lesson? a price too heavy indeed.
thats why, yixian should open her eyes and look arnd.
stop living in your own bubble xian.
Yixian has been living in her own bubble.
Why so...?
You see, I wanted to end 2008 'well' in a way, but just before i could, i did something really insensible. ok maybe its just to me. in anycase, i was sort of convicted that its true that i've such a weakness and that.. AAAAAAH. its like, "hello yixian yes 2008 is coming to an end bt its not going to affect everything else, life goes on as usual and you still have to pay a price to learn lessons. dont think that even in the 48hours before 2009 comes there's nth much going to happen. so wake up your idea xian"
ok so tht was what happened.
and today, i heard the most shocking news in my life.
someone whom i know but lost contact with, is. is... is.. yea.
shock ttm.
and sometimes u cannot help but wonder, and somehow, as much as i think that i'm not responsible for it, i think that even at the most indirect manner, im one of the links in the long chain. and to be very honest, it did take me awhile to acknowledge that indeed God is still soveriegn and in control of the situation, that if this is the price that she has to pay for the lesson? a price too heavy indeed.
thats why, yixian should open her eyes and look arnd.
stop living in your own bubble xian.